When the Grind Feels Like Quicksand

Man… this summer has felt like straight quicksand.

I’ve been in the mud trying to rebrand my company, mapping out plans, changing direction early, and honestly — it’s been rough. Some days it feels like I’m making more mistakes than progress. No motion. No momentum. Just me watching everybody else outside living while I’ve been stuck inside my own head since Memorial Day.

It got me questioning myself heavy — like maybe I fell off.

I stopped making music. I stopped creating content for artists because it felt like my message wasn’t landing. That’s a tough pill to swallow when you built something from scratch.

The hunger is still there. Day one hunger never left.

But the fear of making the wrong move, the fear of no progress? That’s been eating at me.

Every day it feels like I uncover something I did wrong or something I “should’ve” done. Like — I spent money setting up an LLC only to find out a C-Corp might have been the better play for my long-term goals. I lost my wallet, my cards, my IDs, and now I’m stuck waiting to get my life back in order.

On top of all that — I’m going through a breakup.

Finding yourself while losing pieces of yourself daily feels like war. Sometimes I feel like it’s just me vs. the world. And if I don’t do the work, nothing moves. Nobody’s coming to save me.

Blacc Market is still my vision. It’s still supposed to be a resource, a platform, a hub — but right now it feels diluted.

Why?

Too many ideas, not enough focus. I’ve started so many things that I’m stretched thin. Too many voices in my head. I take advice from people I respect, but then I second-guess everything.

I’ve literally recorded my first episode four times and still wasn’t satisfied enough to drop it.

But here’s the thing: I’m learning that perfection is my enemy. Consistency is the key that’s missing.

So this is me holding myself accountable.

The rebrand, the setbacks, the delays — they’re all part of the story. I’d rather be honest about where I’m at than pretend everything’s smooth. Because it’s not.

If you’ve been feeling stuck, too — know you’re not alone.

Sometimes the slow motion is still motion. Sometimes the mud is building muscle.

I’m gonna keep pushing. And if you rocking with me — keep watching. This is just the middle of the story.

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